I got engaged early in my early twenties not long after graduating. Many considered it early especially in the part of society where I grew up. In my opinion at that time was that marriage would provide a safe haven from the piercing sexual desires, besides why wait when both parties are willing and able. Well one thing led to another and the relationship ended and I was back in the singles market again. It was a very difficult breaking up the relationship, and it took close to a decade for me to realise that time had gone by after which I then set myself a target to get married at all cost by a certain age.
Looking back, it wasn’t a wise thing to do, I ended up putting pressure on myself probably because most of my colleagues and peers were married with kids and I wasn’t getting any younger. A few more years went by and I was running out of time to meeting my target I needed a bride fast. So what did I do, I decided to re-enact the broken relationship after losing contact for close to a decade and separated by the Atlantic. Of course, people change over time, develop habits, form opinions and defend their values. You can’t expect someone to remain the same, but that never crossed my mind. I had a target and wanted to meet it and nothing else mattered.
What was I thinking? Is it that she wouldn’t have had relationships and perhaps not in one at the time of re-enactment? The whole scenario was very messy and the fact that there was distance separating us didn’t make it any better. It became very apparent after the whole episode that the truth wasn’t being told and there was deception in the background. The experience taught me a lot of lessons, and thanks to a friend who was able to knock some sense into my head and make me see things clearly and objectively. It would have been a different story today.
These are the conclusion I drew from my experience:
- People change over time which is influenced by the society they live in.
- If re-enacting an old relationship, the reasons for the re-enactment must be clear, convincing and tested over time. It would take more to convince an ex that the relationship would not break up again though sceptical about the feasibility of re-enacting broken relationships.
- You must develop your view of the person based on the current situation and not on events of the past.
- Separation and distance can be a hindrance and an obstacle in developing meaningful dating relationships especially if a strong bound did not exist prior to the separation.
- There isn’t any substitute for face to face meetings when developing a relationship. Letter writing, talking over the phone, chatting, digital imaging, photographs, Internet etc can be deceptive and can give false impressions.
- Invest time when dating to know each other and become very good friends.
- Acquired impressions of a person can becloud decision-making especially when it is perceived that he or she is better off and can provide financial security.
- It can be very difficult to break up a second time when things do not genuinely work out especially when families are involved in both situations.
The crux of the matter is that we shouldn’t put ourselves under pressure or succumb to pressure from friends, family and so called well wishers. Do the right things, develop good and godly character. When it is God’s time you’ll find your bride or will be found by your husband. The same applies to our desires and needs. It’s God that gives children so don’t worry if it tarries. A day with God is like a thousand and a thousand like a day.
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